Nemoguće je to dobro kako se sve složi u životu. Kako često zaboravimo gdje smo i što radimo i zapetljamo se u male željice i umne zavrzlame! Kako kaže draga mi koleginica : dovoljno je biti bezazlen. A koliko često smo sve samo ne bezazleni? Kako često dopustimo umu da nam zakomplicira božansko postojanje? 

            Koliko možemo biti sretni što imamo vjeru, što imamo boga, gurua, prirodu! Jučer mi je prijatelj ispričao kao je 45 minuta gledao dvije zmije kako igraju svoj ples, isprepletene vertikalno, poput ide i pingale (energetski kanali u kralježnici) metar i po od poda. Koliko je samo savršeno to bilo, taj izraz/ples prirode. S obzirom da živimo u betonskim džunglama neuravnoteženih humanoida, potsjetit ću vas na nemogućnost da se odlijepite od ekrana kad gledate Discovery ili NatGeo Wild ili koji god paket programa plaćate, kad promatrate dio svijeta u kojem živimo, a kojeg smo toliko malo iskusili i vidjeli.

            Priroda je zakon! Priroda jest zakon. Njome vladaju zakoni opstanka i uvijek ista nepisana pravila rađanja, hranjenja, teritorija, nastavka vrste i nestajanja. Ono što te zakone remeti jest samo uplitanje ove naše džungle u njenu savršenu ravnotežu.

            Sjeti se samo onih ubrzanih prikaza rasta cvijeta, promjena godišnjih doba… Sjeti se svakog pojedinog zalaska sunca, nije li svaki bio savršen? Jeli ikad reakcija na zalaz sunca, pun mjesec ili nebo puno zvijezda, nepregledne morske površine ili vjetra u krošnji stabla bilo: pih, dosadno, mijenjam program. Ne! Svaki put se nešto u tebi proširilo. Poželjela si i poželjeo si stati, duboko udahnuti i promatrati prirodu, osjećati se dijelom nje. Ništa drugo ja ne smatram Bogom doli to. Taj osjećaj, tu povezanost, takvu kvalitetu otvorenosti srca i predaje beskonačnosti.

            To nazivam božanskim kvalitetama ili uplitajem božanske ruke u svom vlastitom životu: kada sam u tom stanju gdje životnu situaciju ili odnos s osobom doživljavam s osjećajem otvorenosti, prihvaćanja i nekog uzvišenog razumijevanja bez riječi. Kada te mogu zagrliti s ljubavlju i oduševljenjem s kojim uranjam u more prvi put toga ljeta. S tom tišinom u srcu, s tim osjećajem potpunosti u tijelu. S osjećajem da sam sama beskonačna i da je sve dio mene kao što sam i ja dio svega.

            Prekrasna usporedba tako često korištena, ali vječno jednostavna, pa tako i svakome razumljiva: ti si val u oceanu. Poznaje li val svoju pravu prirodu? Misli li val nekada da je samo val na površini? Gleda li val druge valove, jesu li veći ili manji od njega? Nestaje li val kada dođe do obale? Kreće li se val sam na površini ili je konstantno svjestan svoje jednote s oceanom?

            Znaš li da si dio ove savršene beskonačne kreacije? Znaš li da si sastavni dio Svemira? Da si točkica točkice na ovoj Zemljici, a istovremeno neodvojivi i sastavni dio velikog organizma kojeg nazivamo životom?

            Mislim da sam o ovome već govorila jednom ranije. Svaki put me ta realizacija ošamuti, izbaci iz cipelica maloumlja, otvori mi prsni koš i osjećam kako mi u srcu pulsira cijeli svemir. Zahvalna sam. Što jesam. Što jesi. Što jesmo. Što jest!

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            It is impossibly perfect how everything falls into place. How often do we forget where we are at and what we are doing and how often do we get entangled in our own small desires and complications of the mind? As my very dear colleague says: it is enough to be innocent. How often are we anything and everything but innocent? How we allow the mind to complicate our divine existence!

            How happy we are to have that faith, god, guru, nature! A friend told me how he was watching two snakes dancing their dance, vertically intertwined, like ida and pingala (energy channels around the spine). How perfect it was, nature expressing itself. Considering are lives are limited to concrete jungles packed with unbalanced humanoids, I will remind you of the inability to unglue yourselves from the screen when watching Discovery or NatGeo Wild or any of the similar kind in your pre-paid channels packages, whilst observing a part of the world in which we live in but have very little or no experience with.     

            Nature is the best! Nature is the law. Laws of survival, the unwritten rules of birth, feeding, territory, breeding and vanishing is nature. The only thing disturbing those rules is the influence of our jungle on that perfect balance.

            Bring into memory those accelerated images of a flower growing, the change of seasons… Remember every single sunset. Was not each and every one perfect? Was your reaction to a sunset, a full moon or a star-filled sky, a vast sea surface or the wind in the tree tops: yawn, boring, change the channel? No! Every time something inside you expanded. You wished to stay still, take a deep breathe in and observe nature, be a part of it. Nothing else do I consider to be God but this. That feeling, that connexion, that quality of openness of the heart and giving in to infinity. That is what I name to be divine qualities or divine intervention in my life. When I find myself in that state where any given situation or relationship can be experienced with openness to receive, accepting it as it is and a higher level of understanding without words. When I can give you a hug with the love and affection and enthusiasm with which I dive into the sea first time that summer. With silence in the heart, with the feeling of wholeness in my body. With knowing I myself am infinite and all is a part of me as I am part of all.

            A beautiful comparison, used so often, yet simple and easy to relate to: you are a wave in the ocean. Does the wave know its true nature? Does the wave think that it is a  wave on the surface of the ocean? Does the wave compare its size to other waves? Does the wave vanish once it reaches the shore? Does the wave move alone on the ocean’s surface or is it conscious of its oneness with the ocean?

            Do you know that you are a part of this infinite creation? Do you know that you are an indivisible part of this Universe? That you are a dot on a dot called Earth, and at the same time the integral part of this huge organism we call life? 

            I think I spoke of this before. This realisation hits me each time, punches me out of my shoes of small-mindedness, opens up my chest and I can feel the universe pulsating in my chest. I am grateful. For being. For you being. For us being. For being!