U pauzama od posla ne šećem
po šumi, jer jednostavno
nisam zainteresirana. Vani je priroda božanstvena.

Dok god ti je nešto pred nosom, ne cijeniš to toliko kao kada ga više nema.

Primjer 1

Živiš u Splitu, i apsolutno hejtaš te žicaroše
na Peristilu, ne podnosiš ih.
Ne podnosiš ni turiste koji
ne daju dovoljno manče onim
mladim zgodnim dečkima što
se slikaju s turistima za slike obučeni kao rimski vojnici. Smeta ti što svira radio na Rivi, što stolice u kafićima više nisu udobne kao što
su nekad bile, što busevi
smrde i prde i spori su, a vozači
voze kao da imaju Formule 1, a ne stare kante. Što
je more mutno, a ljetne večeri
prepune prodavača pizdarija
za turiste i što se nemaš više gdje šetati od redova štandova.

Primjer 2

Neko vrijeme živiš
npr. u Indiji ili Njemačkoj
– perspektiva ti se malo izmijeni. Žicaroši na Peristilu odjednom postanu
stari prijatelji koje se veseliš vidjeti.
Turisti su simpatični sa
svojim neobičnim odjevnim
kombinacijama i iscrpljenim osmijesima od cijelog dana šetanja po gradu. Radio na Rivi je neobično iznenađenje, a i svira neka dobra stvar. I bože što
je lijepo popit’ kavu na Rivi, kakve god bile stolice. Bus te vozi u Trogir
ili Omiš, najljepše gradiće na obali i postaje turističko vozilo za
promatranje života u svih 7 Kaštela, ako ideš u Trogir po staroj cesti. More i
dalje malo smrducka, ali kakve to ima veze kad se s Rive vidi Brač, a kućice prodaju maslinovo ulje u lijepo dizajniranim bočicama.

Preko plota je uvijek zanimljivije, ili kako se to već
kaže.
Priroda uma je da želi. Um
jest želja. Život funkcionira na temelju želja. Želim jesti, pa skuham ručak. Bol nastaje kada želim,
a ne ostvari se onako kako sam željela.
U tom slučaju sam previše
vezana za želju. Što to uopće znači:
vezanost? Naravno da smo povezani sa sobom, sa svojom okolinom i sa rezultatima
svog napornog i upornog rada. Problem je u tome da NIKADA NIŠTA nije bilo TOČNO ONAKO kako si zamislimo. Ali
nikad.

Obično zamislimo Primjer 2 gorenavedene priče, a susretnemo se u realnosti s
Primjerom 1. Primjer 1 je stvarno stanje stvari gledano iz perspektive
nezadovoljenosti. Primjer 2 je samo jedna od tisuće
pozitivnih verzija bilo kakve situacije, odnosa s ljudima, posla kojim se
bavimo. Pitanje je koju ćeš verziju izabrati danas. Ako si
se naspavala/o, ako si dobro jeo/la, AKO – onda ćeš ići
više ka onoj zadovoljnijoj
verziji. AKO nešto drugo,
onda će verzija biti neka
druga. Nevezanost znači ne
imati verziju! Živi kao da
ti je svaki tren posljednji. Štogod
napravio, postigla – svi umiremo, bez milosti. Planeta ne bira. Svi idu pod
zemlju, neki prije neki kasnije.

Snažna i neostvarena želja
može
se pretvoriti u laganu namjeru: “Vidjet ćemo
što će biti – otvorena sam za sve verzije. Ne prestajem
planirati, jer možda bi mi baš
ta i ta verzija najbolje sjela, ili mi se trenutno čini da bi mi najbolje sjela, ali hajdemo vidjeti što će ispasti.” Ili ako ti je to previše mlako, ti sebi odredi cilj i
kreni smjelo. Samo ne zaboravi biti strpljiv/a i uporna/an!

Nemamo pojma koliko dragocjenog vremena trošimo na pizdarije koje nas
zaokupljaju, a priroda im je takva da ih treba samo pustiti da laju, i ne
brinuti. Umjesto da se okrenemo oko sebe i pogledamo što je važno za poduzeti, ‘meni
na poslu nije baš bilo
idealno danas’, pa te umor svladava, ne uspijevaš se naspavati. Pored tebe sjedi drugo živo biće kojem treba utjeha, skuhana juha i pomoć oko zadaće/posla. Ako se zaokupiraš potrebama drugih, vrijeme će prolaziti, zadovoljstvo će rasti, a svi tvoji problemi bit će jedan po jedan rješavani po putu,i ti ih nećeš
niti osjetiti.

Kako se ono kaže,
da vrijeme u dobrom društvu
leti, a u lošem sekunde
prolaze kao sati? To je priroda tvog uma. To je tvoj um. To je moj um. To je
UM. On je takav kakav je. Promijeni perspektivu, pogledaj iz drugog kuta, pitaj
kako ti to? – daj da i ja. Neka i ja znam prirodu ljudskog uma. Ma ne samo to,
nego kako ne dati umu da caruje, već
da caruješ ti? Kakva
je razlika između Tebe i
Uma? Um je Tvoj (svi kažemo: moj um). Tko je taj čiji
je um? Tko posjeduje taj tvoj um? Pa Ja. Taj Ja koji se nalazi u pozadini tvog
uma, tvog tijela, tvoje memorije – to je ono što
ti jesi. Ne daj da te bacaka. Stoj čvrsto
kao stijena na udaru vala, i istovremeno budi pokretljiv/a kao morska trava.

Teško se
odupirem toj želji da ti se
obratim, čitatelju, kada pišem i napišem osjećam
zahvalnost što mi je pružena prilika da podijelim što mi je u srcu, što mi je u glavi, što me učitelj naučio,
da opisujem tehnike koje koristim. Sretna sam što
te imam, čitateljice draga,
da ono što pišem ima nekakav smisao i utjecaj,
makar mali u tvom životu,
za tebe u tvojoj okolini.

Podijeli ovo malo carstvo misli s ljudima koji su ti dragi. Možda i njima učini zadovoljstvo kao i tebi da
se ponovno vraćaš na ove stranice.

Hvala ti što
si tu, hvala Ti na postojanju.

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In breaks from work, I do not take walks in the forest, because I
lack the interest to do so. The nature out there is magnificent.

As long as something is right in front of your nose, you do not
appreciate it as much as you do when it is gone.

1^st
Scenario

Living in Split, you
just hate those mongrels in the center town that are always asking you for change.
You cannot stand the tourists that do not give by far enough change to the handsome
young boys wearing Roman-soldiers style suits and take pictures with them all
day long in the heat. You do not really like to listen to the radio playing
loudly while walking on the seaside and the chairs in the bars are far from
comfortable. The buses smell of farts and they are extra slow, but the drivers
keep driving them as if they were Formula 1s. The sea is murky and the summer
nights filled with idiotic souvenir-sellers occupying the walkway with their numerous
selling stands.

2^nd Scenario

When you start to live outside of your country, like in India or
Germany –
your perspective changes a bit. Those money-asking mongrels suddenly become
like old friends you look forward to seeing. The tourists look cute in their
weird clothing combinations and their exhausted smiles after the entire day of
sight seeing. The radio playing in the open is not such an unpleasant surprise
after all and a good song is on. And god, it is great to have a cup of coffee
on the seaside. The bumpy bus takes you to Omiš or Trogir, the most beautiful towns
on the coast and suddenly become sightseeing buses that take you through the 7
coastal towns of Kaštela. The sea might smell a little in places, but what
difference does it make when you can see the island of Brač
just across the channel? The sellers at the stands are have good olive oil sold
in what seems to be designer bottles.

The grass is always greener on the other side. The nature of the
mind is to wish. The mind is desire. Life goes on dictated by desires. The
desire to eat, make me prepare lunch. The pain starts where I start desiring,
but the outcome is not what I expected it to be. I am too attached to the
desire. What does it mean, to be attached? Of course we are connected, to
ourselves, attached to our environment and the results of our hard work. The
trouble is that NOTHING EVER happened EXACTLY how you wanted it to. It never
ever did.

We imagine the second scenario, and in reality meet the first one,
as a reality coming from a point of view that is dissatisfaction. The second
scenario is just one in a thousand positive outlooks on any situation, personal
relations, jobs we do. The question lies in the version you will choose for
yourself today. If you slept well, eaten well, IN CASE YOU HAVE –
then you might be inclined to go towards the version containing more
satisfaction. IN ANY OTHER CASE, the version will be a different one. Not being
attached means not to have a version at all! Live as if it were your last
moment. Whatever you have done, achieved – we all die, without mercy. The planet
does not choose. We all end up underground. Some sooner, some later.

The powerful and unfulfilled desire can become a gentle intention,
an attitude of: ‘let us see what life brings – I am open to all the versions. I am
not stopping to plan, and maybe this particular version is better, or at least
seems to be better, but let me see what will happen. Or if you consider this
way to be too bleak for you – you decide on a goal and go for it
boldly. Just do not forget to be patient, yet determined.

We have no idea how much of our precious time gets lost to crap
that keeps our minds occupied. It just needs to be let to bark. Instead of
having a look around and becoming aware of what really needs to be done, you
are unsatisfied at work; you can be a bit tired. Yet, next to you is another
living entity that needs consolation, a bowl of hot soup and assistance in one
way or another. If you keep yourself occupied with others’
worries, time will go by, contentment will grow and all your problems will, one
by one, get solved by the way, without you even noticing.

There is an expression, how time flies in good company, but in
bad company seconds go by like hours. That is just your mind. That is just my
mind. That is just MIND. It is as it is. Have a change of perspective –
choose another angle and ask the question – how do you do it? Let me give it a go! Let me know more about the nature
of the human mind. Not only that, tell me how not to let the mind be the master
of me, how do I get to be its master?

What is the difference between You and Mind? We say, ‘my
mind’.
So who is the one owning the mind? Who is the one that can say ‘my
mind’?
Well, Me. The one who is beyond your mind, your body, your memory –
it is who you are. Learn how to stand strong like a rock meeting a tsunami, and
at the same time make yourself as voluble as sea-weed.

I have a hard time not speaking directly to you who is reading
these lines. When I write I often feel gratitude for the opportunity gifted to
me, to share what is in my heart, what is on my mind, what my teacher taught
me, the techniques I practice. I am happy to have you, my dear reader, to give
more sense and value to what I write. Even if it is very small one, the
contribution it has, to your life, to your environment.

Share this little kingdom of thoughts with the people you care
about. Maybe they find the contentment you do while you keep coming back to
these pages.

Thank you for being here, thank You for being.